Then just out and PLAY...not hard. Seems simple enough but it really is, that is all i do now a days. I go play and then work on something on the range that i had trouble with in the round and then go play again. I've figured out that you will never had "your swing" all the time. You'll have to grind to find it and then when you do play a lot of golf and enjoy and when it goes away again grind you way back. All you can do.
Oh...I know Jim...
I should just go play. But there's a weird deal going on in my head. I'm almost
afraid to go play right now. I've got this thing running in my twisted little head that if I play badly, I'm going to quit again. If I just stay on the range I'm safe. I can hit it bad on the range because there's no real consequences. Just drag another ball over, take a few practice swings trying to recreate whatever feeling I think I had in New Orleans, try to adjust something or the other, hit the ball and see what happens. Rinse...repeat. Hour after hour. No real fear of failure because I can rationalize that once I get home and look at the video, I'll see something that I'm doing wrong.....and tomorrow......I'll work on that.
It's a real endless loop that I've fallen into. I had even entered the State Mid-Am and then withdrew because I knew I wouldn't have the guts to go play.
The mind is a bizarre thing sometimes.